I AM ENOUGH
Recently internationally acclaimed gospel artist Kirk Franklin shared a thought-provoking post on Instagram about his sister which in turn erupted a flurry of volcanic-like emotions from within. Now normally I'm not moved by emotionalism, however, I heard the humanity of a man questioning the validity of his efforts as a brother. Seething with the confines of "what if" he posts "My sister was just sentenced to 30 years in prison... I now feel the weight of wondering if I could've done more..."
You know sometimes when we take on the daunting efforts of prevention, if we're not careful, we'll find ourselves tilling what was never our responsibility in the first place. In an earlier blog entitled "Unsilencing the Silencer," I share personal thoughts about the suicide of my sistah-friend Tanya. The truth of the matter is for years I questioned whether I did enough to prevent it.
As both men and women, I'm certain over the years we've all pondered whether we were enough in preventing another's actions; voluntary or involuntary. Whether relationally (married or single), financially, psychologically, emotionally and yes, even spiritually. Too often we end up taking on the responsibility absent confidently protruding from a place of enough within our own selves. I remember the inadequacy of being a divorcee in my first marriage and the unfounded and pretentious attitudes of others. Although I was a good wife and mother, like fellow-divorcees, I too found myself wondering if I was enough. You see, the hideousness of taking on that responsibility is that it leaks over into other areas of our lives. In other words, the tenderness of an untruth when left unchecked will inevitably derail and take hostage the permeating effects of one's uniqueness in the lives of others.
In a society prone to marginalizing women, as sisters, daughters, mothers, wives, aunties, grandmothers, boss-ladies and yes, even spiritual leaders, we tend to believe the variableness of our imperfections not only frustrates us but God too! Can I tell you that's the furthest thing from the truth? Know that whatever the outcome, even in our best efforts, it was never solely our responsibility to handle!
You see, God allowed the unspoken unworthiness of others in my life to navigate me through the maturation process of defining and fortifying my inner enoughness in Him! I truly believe we're harder on ourselves than God is! It's true, rarely does Scripture afford us a frontal transparent view into the life of the Apostle Paul. Here we see the "Law of Identification" exhibited towards those with whom he's been entrusted in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 (MSG) which says "My grace is enough; it's all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness. Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size - abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become."
So, no matter where you might find yourself in pondering whether you're good enough, know that the love of God is unfailing and His Grace is ineffable! In other words, cease and desist from asking am or was I enough in the abusive relationship, the marriage, the business, the sistah-friend relationship, the sentencing or murder of a friend or loved one and declare and decree that because I AM is ENOUGH, therefore I am are enough in Christ Jesus!