Surrendering the Unsurrendered
The Precursor To Trust
“When she had met Elkanah, she knew the Lord had been faithful and generous to her. Not only was Elkanah fair and honest in his ways and his dealings with others, but he actually loved her. He saw something in her eyes that made him smile, and look back at her with an intensity that unsettled her in the best of ways. She gave her husband her heart as well as her body and during the first year of their marriage, she basked in his kindness to her like a cedar in winter sunshine. Each month she would hope and pray and ask the Lord to "let this be the one." Elkanah was quite anxious himself. Nothing would please him more than to bring a child into the world with the love of his life, Hannah. But each month, she received a reminder once again of her shame and disappointment. Hannah could sense the other woman's harsh jealousy in her withering stares. Peninnah, began giving her those condescending looks, those "Poor, poor, barren Hannah" looks. Peninnah was not only jealous about the amount of meat from the temple that her husband gave his other wife, but she knew as well that while Elkanah would take care of her and treat her well, he would never love her in the way that he loved Hannah. And she hated Hannah for it. One day in particular, they all went to the House of the Lord together. While Elkanah was distracted, talking with the other men, Peninnah seized the moment to insult Hannah by saying "You may think he loves you more than me -- and maybe he does, but where does he sleep when he wants a son? Whose tent does he enter when he wishes to increase the line of his family with abundance? It's a shame, really, Hannah. I'm sure you would've made a good mother. But it's clearly something that's not meant to be.’” (excerpt from “You Have It In You” - Pastor Sheryl Brady)
Recognizing the Issue
At the onset it's easy to perceive this as merely a beautiful love story about a woman's love for her husband and the barrenness of her womb, as oppose to her unwillingness to self-address and surrender the unsurrendered areas of inadequacy within her life. For many of us, it's easier to memorialize the offense than to confront the emotionalism which hinders us from seeing beyond the pain. In many instances, we tend to self-abort or self-sabotage our potentially achieving a definitive response from God due to fragile unsurrendered insecurities. Well, in 1 Samuel 1, we see where Hannah was no different; she was emotionally inapt to envision a lifestyle change. In order to actualize permanent change and improvement, one must acknowledge a transformative change will always happen from the inside out; starting with our subliminally unsurrendered idiosyncrasies.