The Repairability of One
The Mental Abuse of a Grudge
For years, I held a grudge against an individual who attempted scripturally to abrogate the calling of God on my life. At the mention of their name, I would become irascible and disconcerting within the very core of my spirit.
One day while praying, the Lord spoke to my heart and said, "Beloved, don't expect your mind to change until you first identify the condition of your mind. Don't expect your life to change if you aren't willing to change your lifestyle. For only then can you require of others what is no longer an option for you." Through no understanding of my own, I had subjected myself to a level of torment due to an unrequited wrong!
Where the propensity to subject or expose ourselves knowingly or otherwise to the potentiality of a behavior whose languishing effects may result in psychological or spiritual trauma, know that it's time to unmask. When we savor the temporal gratification of holding a grudge, we're in essence -- not the individual, robbing ourselves of spiritual vitality; the fluidity of creativeness and anointing.
The Proper Context of Change
Contrary to modern-day belief, the extensiveness of one's damage does not define its reparability. Nonetheless, it is a truth that nothing can be properly seen through a shattered glass. Whether once damaged by an offense or challenged in our thinking, we are not irreparably broken.
For many of us, the question then becomes in what context do I embrace change? Well, change begins with being challenged by God! The Bible is full of ordinary people not stories of individuals who were challenged to unmask in the proper context of change.
Believe it or not, God challenges us to allow Him to help us with our challenges. In Joshua 1:1-9, like Moses, God promised to be with Joshua and not to allow anyone to come up against and overtake him during the challenges of life nor leave or abandon him. Here God tells Joshua three times to "be strong" be firm, resolute, not swayed by others. For many of us, access to our promise land has been postponed because we improperly perceive the context of change.
God challenges us to realize that change doesn't usually happen quickly. In our quick-fix society, it's effortless becoming accustom to having our dilemmas resolved quickly. In Joshua 11:16-23 the conquest of Canaan seems to have happened quickly, but in actuality it took seven years. You see, the problem with a quick-fix mentality is that it hinders us from encountering the dance of Grace around the evil one!